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dream
Alriiight, so I had a fairly involved dream last night/this morning. It involves being kidnapped and forced to live with a scary family, being abused/humiliated, and... Yoochun.



I was at Starbucks with Jess and Alli, we were either in a city for a concert or we stopped on the way or something. Before we left I said I was going to stop at the bathroom, they all said okay and that we'd meet up outside.

While I was washing my hands the door opened and a man walked in. Obviously I was freaked out because it was definitely a women's restroom and he was giving off intense scary vibes. I started panicking and grabbed a paper towel so I wouldn't look too suspicious and was about to turn around and walk out when he started pinching my arm and then grabbed it so I couldn't get away. He pulled me out the door while I was screaming for someone to help me, but I don't remember seeing what was outside the bathroom after that.

He took me back to his house where I was forced to live with him and his wife. His wife was decent, she would sometimes sneak me extra food or let me do things the man usually forbid. She was a bit heavy, and now that I think about it looked surprisingly like Hercules's human mother... but anyway.

The man was absolutely disgusting. He was fairly overweight, always sweaty and dirty, with this unruly assortment of short facial hair. I don't remember details, but he would force me to take off my clothes and do any number of humiliating things, sometimes tied up, while he watched and recorded everything. I think he sold the videos to people. Beyond that he was extremely controlling of both me and his wife.

I had been living with them for about a year and they started to trust me, so I would be allowed to walk around on my own in public places as long as they were nearby. We were at some big social event, I think it had to do with school or something, in a large room where people were standing around the perimeter of this huge rectangle. I'm not sure what was inside. I was walking around and saw my dad, but the man and his wife were nearby so I had to be really sneaky.

I told him what was going on, where I was living, their names, and so on, ad he said he would find a way to get me out, but then I had to leave or I'd look too suspicious.

Then the dream fast forwarded to two or three years later. I had been rescued and since it was the summer I was living at home, I had also started going to college earlier. I was, obviously, extremely traumatized and had a hard time trusting people and being around men. I was constantly paranoid and afraid of everything.

And then here it gets even stranger - I was in a relationship with Yoochun and he was spending part of the summer in the states with me. He was one of the few people I really trusted and felt at ease around. He understood why I acted the way I did, was very patient and sweet, and was overall very comforting but not at all in a condescending sort of way. So overall I was extremely content with Chunface.

At this part of the dream I was outside in a park sort of place sitting on a wall with him (for a fountain, or a landscaping thing, etc.) It was very bright and sunny, like the stereotypical happy summer scene. Jess and Alli were with us but they had gone to buy drinks or something and said they would be back soon. Naturally I had a fear of being alone so in any other situation I would have been freaking out, but since I was with him I felt very safe and happy. Aand so the dream ended with happy Chun cuddlytimes.




Well.

Now this monstrosity needs to be interpreted!

Besides that I had a good day, went to DSW with the crew and bought myself some Converse action for Disney World... now me and Jess are going to match. I haven't worn sneakery-type shoes in years!