I am having THE most trouble ever finding a layout that a) I like and b) actually works.

Where do you guys get yours? I've been on mintyapple but I keep looking at the same things.

I feel like my internet efficiency levels have gone down upon coming to college, haha. Less time, I guess?

So.

I got a tumblr.

Anyone else have one? I need friends. :D

I've been meaning to start uploading songs I've been listening to lately for a while. They'll be mixes of popular and maybe not so well known artists, so hopefully somebody can find something new that they like. :D I'll probably do as many songs as I can upload to mediafire at once. So here's some for now!

58 - Alone Again (Naturally)
Combichrist - Spit
David Bowie & Trent Reznor - I'm Afraid of Americans
Debout sur le zinc - les mots d'amour
Elbow - Grounds for Divorce
Jane's Addiction - Whores
Janet Jackson - What Have You Done for Me Lately
Les Negresses Vertes - Zobi la Mouche
Machines of Loving Grace - Shake
Machines of Loving Grace - X-Insurrection
My Bloody Valentine - She Loves You No Less
Nine Inch Nails - Not So Pretty Now
Nine Inch Nails - Vessel
Nitzer Ebb - Join in the Chant (Gold!)
Rob Zombie - Superbeast
Schaft - Arbor Vitate
Skid Row - Youth Gone Wild
Skunk Anansie - Because of You

↪ 10/17/09 - download

Got home a few hours ago, and...

I'm fine!

Kind of anticlimactic but I feel so, so much better. A ridiculously huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. He didn't even do an EKG! I follow up one more time in February, but that'll probably be the last. Things learned today:

• I tend to have a (really) fast heart rate, no particular reason why.
• I'm hypersensitive to it now, but I've probably been like this for a while.
• Trying to figure out my heart rate on my own = bad.
• Soda/too much chocolate is not going to happen (caffeine free sometimes, maybe. Not a big deal.)
• Starbucks should be avoided, with some exceptions.

The caffeine will raise my heart rate, but it won't hurt me. It'll just make me feel uncomfortable. If I want to deal with that once in a while I can get a frappuccino or whatever. Yessss!

So now I can stop obsessing over this stuff in here. That's good. :D

I saw cure4thecommon did this, so I tried it too. :D It's scarily accurate. Seriously. How do they know all this.

( enneagram test )

I love low budget gothy PVs. This is fabulous. :D

Okay, I figured I'd put this here in case you're also on my facebook/only saw part of the story/whatever.

Short version:

I went into the doctor Saturday morning because I wanted medicine for bronchitis. I get there and they tell me I have an extremely fast heart beat (it went up to 190 at one point) and I need to go to the hospital.

Went on an ambulance, got tons of medicine, spent forever in the ER, was at the observation unit all night, got an ultrasound done, a billion EKGs, had my own little heart rate machine, almost got sedated + the two shocky things to restart my heart, and finally went home Sunday afternoon.

So now I'm home and okay, just kinda sore from the hospital bed/dizzy from not eating/still having bronchitis. Basically it was a combination of things, like sudafed, caffeine from soda, fever, nerves, inhalers, etc. and I probably have a fast rate anyway. I go back to the cardiologist in a few weeks to follow up.

But most importantly I'm awake and feel fine, just sick. :D